a colored spectrum

eurology

came and gone was Good Friday.
went to Cathedral of Good Shepherd with Jared.
the Mass was indeed a renewal of faith.
a reminder that Christ the Son sacrificed himself to take away the sins of the world.
the death put forward by the Jews when Chirst claimed that He was King.
Pontius the good governor placed in a predicament.
the crucifiction in fulfilment of the scriptures.

Mummy's coming home today.
gonna chill out over coffee with Don at airport later tonight while waiting for Mummy.
don't need squeeze with people down town.
for now, gonna busy myself with Uncle Ho's assignment...
time to hit the much dreaded text.

tmrw's Easter Sunday.
He is born again, this time he enjoys eternal life.
He scends into Heaven and is seated at the right hand of the Father.

for God's sake, pls stop asking me why i am not out with Josh during weekends!!!

1. he spends his saturdays in school to study and write essays.
2. he spends his sundays at home resting.
3. he is only free from 10-3pm during weekends.

i want to swim, beach volley, play sports, movie, go hike or something.
i'm ready for beach party anytime!
so please call me out if u want to. and stop asking me where is Josh or what he is doing.
we are 2 very different people, with 2 different time schedules and very different interests.
if there's one thing we do together, that's going to school together.
frankly, i have given up asking him out or planning an outing.
about him devoting all his time and energy to studies, i am happy for him.
i can no longer be bothered by the fact that we don't do anything spontaneous together.
c'mon, he doesn't even surprise me or plan any outing. he doesn't even date me out.
he only dates his books, essays and presentations.

call me unreasonable or not understanding. call me insensitive towards his needs.
but i firmly believe that couples need to participate in activities together so cultivate rship.
relationships are like trees. they need water, sunshine, air and fertilizers to grow.
they need to be trimmed to grow stronger.
time is what you make out of it.

be it studying at East Coast Park tog. be it playing tennis.
be it watching a free performance at Esplanade. do voluntary work at missionary homes.
all of us are students. but why do other couples have time to do the little things together?

if this is a perfect world, everything i believe in would be put into practice.
but this isn't a perfect world. so it won't happen.
anyway i have every right to live life that way i want it to be =)
call me selfish but i live in pursuit of a fulfilled life.
i don't want to die one day and realize that i've not lived life to its fullest.

i don't want my eurology to only praise me for being a conscientious student and a diligent worker.
i don't want to be remembered for how well i did in exams.
i want to remember when was the last summer i ran through the field of sunflowers.
i want to remember what i did that changed someone's life for the better.
i want to remember when was the last night i watched fireflies and glow-worms in the wild.
i want to live again the euphoric elation of having white-water raft down a rapid river.
i want to live again the adrenaline rush of sky-diving.
i want to be me.

posted by Veen @ 14:27